dude, life comes at you fast, you know that? first i thought my dad's mother would die in this house. but looks who's back home, across the country - HER. im free at last! my house to me, my own bathroom back...WOOOO


life is just so good. and omg;

~THE BOY~

there's so much i need to catch up on!
for a while i was the hard-to-get person, and boy did he chase. he sat outside my window for an hour, called my cell like 4 times. i didnt really notice either, except for the occasional rock hitting the window. but i wasn't sure ...and i slept through the phone vibrations. 

and THEN he told me something. something that isn't really much in todays society and doing an overview of society's males. but he said it, and coming from him- it may be the biggest thing he's ever said to a girl. ever.

he said 'i love you'

and he set a ringtone for when i call...and its a love song.

I KNOW, I KNOW, corny...but from HIM, its not. because he's not a pig like most insincere guys. he's real.
...at this point, he needs to do something, make a move, even if i will be around for a long time.

and last but not least....look up the artist Landon Pigg if you've never heard of him, his songs are very nice. then tell me what you think of him...


ciao!

I've been pulling in some extra dough working for my dad is his shop. I really know how to un-focus, though, haha. Like one time, I was taking pictures of myself. Hey--i liked my outfit that day! And another time someone walked in on me clipping my toenails. Oops! haha. oh well. I know how to get work done. Eventually.


Speaking of my dad, his mom is going home next week, House to ourselves...FINALLY! it will be normal life again! No more over-spending on fresh grapefruit and assorted lunchmeat! Yayyy! No more waitressing! No more Physical Therapy Appts! Woooo!
I love her, don't get me wrong.



We recently got a Wii, several days later (today) ...HUGE thunderstorm. No more Wii. Dead as a doornail. Darn. And i had just bought my dad a new game for the Wii, too. His birthday is coming up! Ugh!



Hmm what else. Sometimes i feel like my boy doesn't like me. Then I realize we're bestfriends, and that he does like me, haha. I'm pretty sure he'd do anything for me, I just forget it. I guess I get paranoid that he'll move on. But, once again, i remind myself, that's not happening anytime soon. Going a day without talking to him is like going a normal average week. So i called him and just flat out said I felt like saying hi cause "it' been like, a day." We were gonna go for a walk, but it's stilllllll raining so here I am, blogging.



What else is new...hmph...*looks around room* AHA! I'm cleaning out my room and going through each and every drawer and giving away stuff to 'Amvets' if anyone has ever heard of them. You leave your bags of give-aways outside and they drive to your house and take them and donate! After my dad's mom leaves I'm gonna paint my room because I'm tired of white. And my room will be cleaned out so i wont have to worry! Hoorayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.



Til next time,

I have this set of godparents that I've know since I was born, literally.

I call them 'aunt' and 'uncle', cause thats basically how we feel were related, although were just family friends.

They live in an extremely hospitable part of Virginia, and every neighbor and everyone who goes outside knows them.

The whole city (population...eh...2,000?) has probably known this couple at one point or another.

We drive up to see them every single 4th of july. Keep in mind that i live 900 miles away. but we have managed it, Every year, every fourth of july. and in south carolina we buy $300 worth of fireworks and then as we arrive, that week we set them all off, at this couple's house, and everyone....i repeat...EVERYONE, comes to see it.

when i was about 5 or 6 i built a swing with this uncle and it was enormous! It's actually a legend in that city because of how high it goes (20 feet) over a hill that leads into a stream full of round stones and weird green plants. It's one of those memories i'll never forget. ever.

This time around, it's different. That exact uncle who loved me more than life itself and devoted all his time to making me happy while i was up there and sent hugs over the phone and sent something in the mail for my birthday every year, developed several cancer spots all in his body about five years ago.

(im almost done, bare with me)

About 5 years ago, they gave him six months to live, and he surpassed it buy more than a miracle. I swear i thought he could conquer forever, but the chemo eventually stopped working, and in late May, he collapsed, and it was just his time. CPR did close to nothing for him.

So my parents went to 2 memorials/funeral in the past month, and now were not going up for 4th of july.

*ALL MY LIFE, there has never been such thing as 4th of july unless your in that merry little town in VA.

Im not taking it that well, now that I've has time to think about it.. My moms doing everything she can this year to make it nice, but nothing can measure up to the holidays in VA. Nothing. And it's never going to happen again, because my aunt will probably down grade to a smaller house by us. I really miss my uncle, and i love him. We had a special bond that wont be broken. I think of him constantly.

If you read all the way to this point, thanks, because this was not an easy story to tell, and i usually dont submit large posts, so thanks to all of you and happy 4th of july everyone! Be as happy as you can now, because you'll never get this moment back!

-Deggysinger